Wedding Bells

There are so many feelings running through my mind and body right now. My wedding is one month away! That sounds so crazy to me. I am excited to be married and enter that stage of my life, nervous to make such a big leap, anxious for the big day, tired of the stress from school and planning - i can't imagine how i would be right now if my mom hadn't done all that she did / is doing-, ready to go through the temple for the first time, scared for the unseen, and happy that i have found someone who makes me feel comfortable just being me. I feel like my emotions change every five minutes, sparked by the action or words of someone around me - whether it be a close friend or the store clerk. Things are slowly falling into place and the lose pieces are being placed. The big day is right around the corner!

Busy Bees

Have you ever wondered why everyone is always so busy? It is common now-a-days for people to say "I'm too busy" or "maybe later, I have a lot of stuff to do"... maybe we need to slow down. Today I have felt extremely busy. From school at 7am this morning, right into work,studying my brain out, whisked away after dinner, cram relaxing in a ten minute bath, and in what felt like a blink of an eye - i am now in bed. Life is one huge cycle... I find myself in a daily routine sometimes able to be timed exactly to the minute. I get lost in my overscheduled world and do not realize how fast things are going until I have reminders. I saw a very kind, very old man at work today. He was all bundled up, trying to stay warm in this fridged utah weather and run errands at the same time. For some reason this kind man reminded me that life is fast moving and not long enough on this earth. I had a mini panic attack realizing that I can't "always be a little girl and have fun" (peter pan). I wanted to be care-free again, to go back and re-live fun moments from my memories... I was pretty scared. But then a calm feeling came over me and i thought to myself, "I still have a long way to go... maybe I need to appreciate the little things in life and not be on a constant schedule. Maybe i need to notice more, appreciate more, serve more, care more, and live more". So today i am thankful for that kind old man that reminded me how fast and crowded life can be.

Today

Today i am thankful for patience - It is something that i definately lack. I struggle with a lot of traits and characteristics in my life. I am thankful for those in my life who have incredible patience and have been examples to me as they have patience with yours truely. I am extremely stubborn and admit it. It is something that i have and will have to work on my whole life. I am thankful for those who are great examples to me.